scarlet eyes

This is my last time How can I rewind I can't sleep at night Got scarlet eyes It haunts my mind But I'm scared to die And I can't lie Got scarlet eyes From the drink the pills I've been taking To ease my mind, I'm so damn impatient Iris', they disappear And I've never seen it so clear Oh the drink the pills I've been taking Killing me, softly, I'm jaded Iris', they disappear How did I end up right here Listen, I didn't want to write a song Bout how I've been feeling fucked up But its time cause I need help And I'm tired of being drugged up The drink the pills They just prolong the shit I'm feeling They don't cure me They just fix me for a while before I'm back to bleeding Try not to bleed too much though I wanna but I refrain So I get my friends to burn my skin Fill it with ink cause I like the pain Tore me apart to my mum cry about my health She doesn't know four months ago I was this close to killing myself Can you believe it was over some girl that didn't want me? I know right? Still believe I don't deserve half the people I got in my life Im a mess I push away anything good that I can find I just want it to be quiet I just need a little peace of mind But I found a girl, I fell in love, she saved me can't thank her enough But what's the odds that I'll fall down again and straight f*ck her up Yeah people change and I'm trying to be better Especially for her Before I go thought I'd write her this letter To save her the hurt From the drink the pills I've been taking To ease my mind, I'm so damn impatient Iris', they disappear And I've never seen it so clear Oh the drink the pills I've been taking (This is my last time) Killing me, softly, I'm jaded (How can I rewind) Iris', they disappear (I can't sleep at night) How did I end up right here (Got scarlet eyes)