Everywhere I Go

Everywhere I go Things don't ever change I'm changing my ways Not to be the same But everything always Fades Into the dark here we go Away from the light I'll go Dont try to save me I'll just repeat All the mistakes I know Please give up I'm a dying cause I just never Get better No matter what I do I try to change But it ends the same with people scratching Their brain Tryna figure out if I'm Insane I ask the same shit Me being the biggest critic Stay looking in the mirror Like somehow that will fix it I just wanna know Which direction I should go Cause all these nice folks They giving out hope Like maybe one day ill be Normal But that's some bullshit Cause I know myself All the things that I do just Indicate help Destructive by nature And maybe by nurture But that would be putting The blame on my mother And knowing myself No way this could be her This is all me I'm ready to leave Someone take my place Someone worthy Everywhere I go Things don't ever change I'm changing my ways Not to be the same But everything always fades Into the dark here we go Away from the light I'll go Dont try to save me I'll just repeat All the mistakes I know You think you know me Vut you really don't Definition of destruction Is who I am Since my birth I been cursed I walk the earth To search And finally deserve My mothers words I take breaths With regrets Every second transgress Worsen with time Like a virus I should just disappear End it all here No anxiety No more living in fear No more of the thoughts That haunt my Subconscious No more blaming the same Old excuses Telling myself I'm totally Useless Deleting myself right out Of this existence Cause every path that I Take Always leads me to the Same place Same conclusion What would I be losin? Cut the ties to what keeps Me breathing No more feelings Just no more anything Everywhere I go Things don't ever change I'm changing my ways Not to be the same But everything always Fades Into the dark here we go Away from the light I'll go Dont try to save me I'll just repeat All the mistakes I know