Addiction

My whole life I’ve been feeling like I’m lied too And even if I try to hide it there’s still something I feel confined too On the inside I don’t think that I can find truth Cuz even in my mind I’ve been restless trynna find you Addiction comes in many different flavours Sometimes you even see it on the surface But just because you cannot Does not mean that it’s not hurting Finding time, need suppressants I need some meds to let me think This is Something different It’s not the drugs but it’s still hurting all the same Was staying silent trynna cope with all my mental But talking loud so I can heal my confidential It’s finally on the surface Feeling alone on this dark road Trynna Overcome all these potholes Stepping foot first in the undertow Trynna overcome but your so low And I don’t know Where do I go Trynna find solace in my soul Feeling tied down with no escape known Close my eyes just to let go Im telling myself that I should let go These painful moments hang in the air just like an echo It’s like voices they’ve been talking been thinking that I’m impulsive I’ve been needing time alone But that’s the place where all these thoughts grow Its all my dark thoughts I’m not addicted Its just the pain that I can’t stop and Im so conflicted I Feel regret but no remorse so I’ve been stuck here Admit the wrongs that I’ve been doing, make it so clear This isn’t make or fake it This isn’t time to roll your windows up and take a break It’s time to learn your lessons, Get back up and starting fresh with all these burning questions It’s time to make some changes let’s start to rearrange things Learn to organise your life and stop just feeling less than Not all this second guessing It’s time to pay attention Not take some stranger’s message Cuz that’s the stuff that’s got me down and feeling so depressing You gotta take your blessings Feeling alone on this dark road Trynna Overcome all these potholes Stepping foot first in the undertow Trynna overcome but your so low And I don’t know Where do I go Trynna find solace in my soul Feeling tied down with no escape known Close my eyes just to let go See I’ve been letting myself down lately it’s so distasteful And all these voices in my mind lately it’s gotten painful I have these moments in my happy place They fade to grey Replaced by darkness spending lusting I don’t have a say I’ve been going through some therapy lately It’s a view of my attempts to get further away It’s all these issues I’ve been having in these recent days And in this moment Im knowing that I need to escape Not everything is planned, at least that’s how I see it Fate derived from daily choices not just one decision See you have to test yourself so you can find your vision I’ve been feeling like I’m blinded though my imprecision Everything is what you make and what you’ve lost Gotta focus on the positives just flake it off And I’ve been waiting for these moments Yee have little faith It’s all these obstacles I hurdle past that make or break Feeling alone on this dark road Trynna Overcome all these potholes Stepping foot first in the undertow Trynna overcome but your so low And I don’t know Where do I go Trynna find solace in my soul Feeling tied down with no escape known Close my eyes just to let go