Fear

Love is a powerful word And one that I feel I forgot Trying to push away pain but really it's mine that I brought Trynna be everything Im not Trynna be real with myself but truth is that maybe I'm nervous and fearing the plot All of this time I've been lost Trynna hold onto this moment But really this moment is only a thought Haven't been jotting a lot I'm focused on all of these issues I've got in the midst of my brain And I feel like I'm talking to god Feels like I'm talking a lot Always the feeling that nobody's listening feels like I'm all that I got Not about feeling alone but knowing I'm being forgot being forgot Losing all my hope like there's nothing left I don't wanna have to go so low Holding on tight so don't let go All that I've got it's all gone People who thought that they knew me Feel like they never did Never will And all of these good nights All these women Im seeing It's alright In my mind overthinking I can't lie Ask her to leave cuz I'm too shy Deep in my mind I'm not feeling myself Worry to much now it's pain that I felt All my emotions I feel like A monster She slamming the door while I pray for some help Come take a look at these wrongs I've been dealt Take away music I'd feel like I'm going through hell All of this time that I've spent on this earth all alone got me pleading for somebody else Anyone else Anyone else Please Losing all my hope like there's nothing left I don't wanna have to go so low Holding on tight so don't let go All that I've got it's all gone Losing all my hope like there's nothing left I don't wanna have to go so low Holding on tight so don't let go All that I've got it's all gone I'm looking back at these moments Trynna reflect I know it's best to repent Still I'm not here with intent These women they came and they went The people I've chosen to be with The feeling I'm losing my head Losing my mind Things I regret The thoughts of me being a mess The fact that I'm truly upset But really it's me Ive been doing it wrong My fault all the stress I've been dragging along One second it's here and I build up the courage to talk They pretending like nothing is wrong Then when they say that their listening Trying to help They blink and then think that it's gone You think that I'm happy It's only a phase You think that I'm happy It's only today But really I'm Losing all my hope like there's nothing left I don't wanna have to go so low Holding on tight so don't let go All that I've got it's all gone