Why Am I Like This?

I have those good friends And fought the good fight I've seen some great things And have a great life So I don't know why I'm rarely smiling I have those good days And give the good vibes I have a huge heart and even though I try I'm always struggling Is it just me I don't know As I fall far below this poverty line Everyone says that I'll be fine But I just don't believe them Can you blame me You said that we're on our own I knew just what you meant As I held you you were crying Saying words I now forget In these moments It's so easy to believe we'll never get it right But these moments don't define us How we cope defines our lives Well I know they say it's all going to get better Even more so if we do it together But I don't know, sometimes I close my eyes And those sunny skies just fade to grey And I just think, we're all going to die some day so what the hell Well i hate to be the pessimist In every situation that I'm ever in But I always am now And I don't like it but life made me like this And I'm so jaded I'm so jaded Is it just me Am I cursed Forced to live to always work The institution finds us useless if we don't Im a loser now and I always will be baby Sometimes I wanna run run run away I wanna run run run away I wanna run run run away From all the problems that I'm facing You said we were on our own I knew just what you meant As I held you, you were crying out Saying words that I now forget In these moments It's so easy to believe we'll never get it right But these moments don't define us How we cope defines our lives We're not broken we're just broken hearted