It's Addictive

Haven't seen my smile in a couple days I wanna hide away Throw my phone in Lake Michigan Sink under its waves Haven't been alright in a couple months I wanna fade away Find my home in a different place from here Away from my mistakes Scream my lungs out I still don't make a sound My hands black and blue It never hurts enough I feel so numb I'm so exhausted So sick of this life So sick of myself The sun's cracking through my window It knows I haven't slept a wink Circling the brink in the can Until I have the spins again Staring at the walls again Closing in around me Hours passed, the sun is setting For another sleepless night Breaking down once more, looking for closure Wish it was all over Close my eyes, take a deep breath Try to hold down my thoughts Dodging phone calls and ignoring all my texts No one cares anyway Lay in bed, toss and turn til I feel sore The cycle repeats the same Scream my lungs out I still don't make a sound My hands black and blue It never hurts enough I feel so numb I'm so exhausted So sick of this life So sick of myself The sun's cracking through my window It knows I haven't slept a wink Circling the brink in the can Until I have the spins again Staring at the walls again Closing in around me Hours passed, the sun is setting For another sleepless night The sun's cracking through my window It knows I haven't slept a wink Circling the brink in the can Until I have the spins again Staring at the walls again Closing in around me Hours passed, the sun is setting For another sleepless night