Mixed Emotions

What’s going on with you Are you following your purpose Or is this just passions Really, is it worth it Mixed emotions and I can’t control it Heat of moment my flesh taking over Seen this woman deep inside I want her But by God I’m chosen man I gotta focus Mixed emotions and I can’t control it Heat of moment my flesh taking over Seen this woman deep inside I want her But by God I’m chosen man I gotta focus I can’t focus let’s keep it real Enticing got me watching her body How does it feel For real I gotta chill but still, how does it feel To take another step to the edge and let me into the mental Grab me a pen or pencil Talk about what I live through These stories are usually hidden in poetry form I give em You’ll hear it if you just listen if not I’ll paint you the picture Of something most humans deal with while living even believers That know the adversary out there seeking And Looking for somebody with a weakness He got a couple demons they be creeping They happy now cause everybody eating Really feasting while I’m sleeping and I know he know my weakness It ain’t secret Openly speaking I thought I beat it and buried Pandora's key underneath Never to be released but certainly history repeats I’m holding the hidden key in the palm of my hand And I can’t believe it I can’t release Mixed emotions and I can’t control it Heat of moment my flesh taking over Seen this woman deep inside I want her But by God I’m chosen man I gotta focus Mixed emotions and I can’t control it Heat of moment my flesh taking over Seen this woman deep inside I want her But by God I’m chosen man I gotta focus Plenty lessons took from the chosen I wonder in what moment they started losing their focus Adam was chosen David was chosen But the Solomon inside of me got me out here exploring to test out the ocean I’m getting closer to the moment emotion control me Received a warning I’m invoking the old me it’s haunting If I go down that road I fear that I’m never returning But just like Adam that apple looking sweeter than honey Knowing In my mind I shouldn’t try it I don’t plan on biting I just needed some excitement Them the type of things I tell my self to clear my conscious Now I’m sending mixed emotion with a lighter do the science Oh that chemistry ignited Gotta be wiser My heart’s desire is closer to Abba But on the other side I’m eyeing the wisdom inside her body It’s harder now to deny it I’m falling and not relying on Yahweh to help me fight this desire to hold on tighter Mixed emotions and I can’t control it Heat of moment my flesh taking over Seen this woman deep inside I want her But by God I’m chosen man I gotta focus Mixed emotions and I can’t control it Heat of moment my flesh taking over Seen this woman deep inside I want her But by God I’m chosen man I gotta focus Romans 7 weigh on me heavy Like water flowing into New Orleans and I’m the levy I can let it be the chapter I need to help me stay ready Or just use it as crutch and say well you know that I’m fleshly This is deadly Bounded by all the pressure got me stressing Will the lesson from my session with Candace still come in handy When I’m standing in the middle of pressure feel like I’m failing Cause these feelings got the best of me Pain, lust, and affection Lord help me I know you know I’m after ya heart But it’s hard tryna walk when my parts get involved and I start Considering friendship with extra benefits Send a text to a lady friend take a sip, Aye it’s me again I’m feeling This the beginning of happy endings And sadly I can envision the sadness while reminiscing That past life I was living Lost, trapped, and empty That dark side I buried Is still trapped within me Can you hear me Mixed emotions and I can’t control it Heat of moment my flesh taking over Seen this woman deep inside I want her But by God I’m chosen man I gotta focus Mixed emotions and I can’t control it Heat of moment my flesh taking over Seen this woman deep inside I want her But by God I’m chosen man I gotta focus