Need U

I can't stand it Everywhere I look, I see you Try to reach you but I lost you in the black I can't hold these memories No, they are see-through Try to find it, but there ain't no looking back And I know that this is done I can feel it in my lungs All this smoke inside my chest Now my heart is feeling numb Broken mirrors Look at me, like what do we do? I wish I could change the way I am I hate it but I think I still might need you Taking me back Ever since May of '96 I was never one of those ones That fit in with the rest of these kids Either had mad friends or had none Moved so much, didn't know where I lived I was always goin back and forth Emotions run wild, fast as a Porsche I was young and i had to jump off the porch Had to get to the bag No I can't afford to be broke Then addiction took me over Whole life fell apart, + i really went broke + they thought that i would fall know they thought that I'd choke But I came back up, I'm clutch, 24 I been looking for the answers But i really don't know Where to turn anymore And I can't stand it Everywhere I look, I see you Try to reach you but I lost you in the black I can't hold these memories No, they are see-through Try to find it, but there ain't no looking back And I know that this is done I can feel it in my lungs All this smoke inside my chest Now my heart is feeling numb Broken mirrors Look at me, like what do we do? I wish I could change the way I am I hate it but I think I still might need you Taking me back Ever since I was like 6 Had mad independence still Swear love was my only weakness I could fall bout a thousand times And I'd still go find a new switch Yeah I'd still go back and forth I'll do it all again, yeah I'm asking for it I think about you still, but I ignore it I abhor this thought that I'll never find love Found peace, wish it could be enough But I still think about you When it starts to get tough But I'll never get bad enough to hit you up Know I'll only be back Where I'm at in a second I ain't goin back to that Shorty make me get reckless So I try to forget but I can't stand it Everywhere I look, I see you Try to reach you but I lost you in the black I can't hold these memories No, they are see-through Try to find it, but there ain't no looking back And I know that this is done I can feel it in my lungs All this smoke inside my chest Now my heart is feeling numb Broken mirrors Look at me, like what do we do? I wish I could change the way I am I hate it but I think I still might need you