A Denial

I want to rot away I hate my flesh f*ck this place I walk with death stuck in the way My soul is hexed in a world that degrades My spirit has left I want to rot away I hate my flesh f*ck this place I walk with death stuck in the way My soul is hexed in a world that degrades My spirit has left Maybe its because i grew up with less Maybe its because my parents up and split And i was always living with someone else kids Maybe its because the system did me in Maybe its because my environment Turned me nutty like some psych ward shit Maybe my heart died before the end Maybe I've saw too much pain in the eyes of my friends Maybe i feel like i cant make amends Or maybe I'm lost in the dark and the light cant commence Maybe i lost my way Maybe i think too much and it fucks up my day Maybe no one can understand me and what I've became Not even myself I'm crashing with the waves Battling with change the inspiration fades I feel dead anyway F*ck what they say Matter or fact i want them to hate None of you bitches are doing shit Your all just a bunch of sheep to the sage F*ck it all I'm down to fall Came to the conclusion that I'm just a sick little joke in the eyes of GOD Kakarot bumped his head and dropped his thoughts Im so fed up with patience gone and no i don't want no help from no one I fill this shit with power feel the rage courageous f*ck a coward F*ck it I've been weak so I'm cooking up some heat Im outer my innards devour Whats inward is central to cower A judge to the life Caught in the shadow The suffering goes deep Even if the struggle is shallow Im outer my innards devour Whats inward is central to cower A judge to the life Caught in the shadow The suffering goes deep Even if the struggle is shallow Ugh Hopefully they don't see me different I want to rot away I hate my flesh f*ck this place I walk with death stuck in the way My soul is hexed in a world that degrades My spirit has left Hoping that they see me different I don't feel these tears Whats fear nothings real We come to kill kill kill kill I can hear my heart beat racing As you can see my art is pain in the tracing What creates me is make believe Ive been weak I've been deceived by myself What is free what is this burden that i bare Life's not fair and i don't care i swear I swear that i don't care A Denial A Denial A Denial