Autumn (Fall)

God knows im lost inside the bar Ready to fall Autumn I feel so numb to what ive become And still im here I feel so far gone but the pain is in touch There is no love I fear That they wont see what i can be Before i leave Autumn Im doing my best to hold on Prospering against all odds Working on songs all day Trying to get out of this low state I hate this place I look at the waste And put my hands to my face Nothings changing In time I'm faded Tired of waiting Have i lost my patience I land in the dirt and soul search Fighting the thought in my mind that this won't work I feel cursed for even standing on this earth With all that has been said I will do this until the end And if i falter ill get back up and do it again We suffer to find out were stronger than the beating permits God knows im lost inside the bar Ready to fall Autumn I feel so numb to what ive become And still im here I feel so far gone but the pain is in touch There is no love I fear That they wont see what i can be Before i leave Autumn God knows im lost inside the bar Ready to fall Autumn I hate this place I hate myself for showing her this pain I loathe inside the darkness pushing my hands into my face Im trying to pull in the love but the light has lost its way Struggle in abundance put these demons in their grave Cant fall asleep my minds racing in a maze Stuck awake until i pass out and empty all this rage Saturated songs they make tracing what i say Im not tripping your hallucinating if you think your higher ranked Cant break my pace its unstoppable like me smoking dank Hitting all these strains got my brain in a haze Lifting up these spirits for the chase Im looking for a change but i always stay the same