disingenuous

Tell me why I shouldn't feel how I feel Tell me why I shouldn't feel how I feel I've been acting the clown for so long they all think I am dumb Tell me why I shouldn't feel how I feel Tell me why I shouldn't feel how I feel Tell me why I shouldn't feel how I feel I've been disingenuous Self detriment it is Tell me why I shouldn't feel how I feel Yeah I've gotta hide my problems I push them down yeah I beat them to the bottom 'Cause apparently my pain is breaking others But I could never live with that because it bothers me Yeah I know its unfair but I'm feeling really scared They are not even aware I know that some of them care but I still don't wanna share I hide most of my thoughts and they cry They fear my touch and I try to be enough I just wanna be enough Discovered I'll never be numb I just feel too much Hypersensitive I can feel your thoughts Tried to give comfort But you flinched away That left me in shock Was a lethal shot to my brain In my head I'm lost I don't know where is home Alone always alone There must be some place on this globe To escape to let me go Tell me why I shouldn't feel how I feel Tell me why I shouldn't feel how I feel I've been acting the clown for so long they all think I am dumb Tell me why I shouldn't feel how I feel Tell me why I shouldn't feel how I feel Tell me why I shouldn't feel I've been disingenuous Self detriment it is Tell me why I shouldn't feel how I feel Tell me why I shouldn't feel how I feel Tell me why I feel I've been acting the clown for so long they all think I am dumb Tell me why I shouldn't feel how I feel Tell me why I shouldn't feel how I feel Tell me why I shouldn't feel how I feel I've been disingenuous Self detriment it is Tell me why I shouldn't feel how I feel Tell me why I shouldn't feel how I feel Tell me why I shouldn't feel how I feel I've been acting the clown for so long they all think I am dumb Tell me why I shouldn't feel how I feel Tell me why I shouldn't feel how I feel Tell me why I shouldn't feel how I feel I've been disingenuous Self detriment it is Tell me why I shouldn't feel how I feel