Stridulate

Efforts to retract as I cycle through the moments I can't take back. I can't take back I won't take it back to the second his heart stopped Cold hands, hospital beds Cold hands, hospital beds A circle of prayers Pressed together, such illogical sense Thoughts begin to speed up Stridulate Just count to ten Just count to ten Just count to ten Just count to ten I can't -I won't I won't take it back I can't - I won't I just I just I just spent every last chance His grave can't talk back I don't want to be haunted by regret His grave can't talk back His grave won't talk back Last chance As you rise In sun, dusk, (space), time Your petals wilted in a corner From the funeral that brought no closure I accepted forgiveness through only pity I dreamt I'd feel peace when you passed But death was the cheapest theft Closed-eyed envy, a moon waned, shadows dance Never given what I needed, count my losses, & bury the hatchet You're just a symbol choking on You're just a symbol You're just a symbol choking on Your last breath Your last breath I choose love instead One and the same, magnifying the absolute meaning in everything One and the same, magnifying the absolute meaning in everything Go rest in (your) peace