Ambivalence (Stood Still)

Ambivalence, stood still Instinct to slaughter The face of trauma Lies before my eyes I question my creed My conscience shudders Destroying lives All for what protocol An ultimatum Consequences of a lack of adherence To be a fugitive When I refuse to pull this trigger A life spent indoctrinated All for their cause Bring power to the soulless Or face my peril Lives have been spared I flee from my blight