2 am therapy freestyle

It's 2 am Suicidal thoughts they keep on pourin' in Mental ain't get better it's just worsening Thinkin imma take a ride in hearses and Ion think I'm finna get better anytime soon Hopin' ion die before the age of 22 And I know that the drugs I take gon be my doom Just hope when I die my baby ain't in the room Just hope when I die she don't do what I he doin I'm takin all these drugs because in life I'm not so fluent They say why I smoke weed because I can't sip purple fluid If she catch me with that shit I swear to God I'm lookin stupid Don't f*ck with cupid He did me dirty so many times I can't do this There's really people thinkin that I wouldn't do it There's really people thinkin that I was that Netflix special What's my name like Clueless But I got this Ain't no stoppin' on the way to the top bitch I could see the haters at the bottom talk shit I could see the haters tell them niggas watch this And they talkin I can't let them in my life if they real toxic If they come around me breathing all their toxins Lock myself up in my room I feel like marvin I run away from all my problems do it often Smokin' way too much might really got me coughing Way too many drugs might end up in a coffin Don't give a f*ck cuz that shit never really stop a G Everyone know that I'm lit cuz it's only one of me And suddenly I'm wondering If I'm really livin the life that's meant for me Was this shit meant to be I'm fucked up mentally I guess that's why they say that I should go to sleep But I'm too woke to even think about my dreams Bitch you know I got goals that I gotta achieve It's somethin better for me, it's somethin better for my wife It's somethin better for the team Yea I got people to feed And I got people that's dependin on me And I got people that's repentin on me And I got people that be hatin on me So imma do what I please Don't give a f*ck who critiques Don't give a f*ck what you see Cuz imma keep doin me And you can keep doin you If you keep doin what you doin best believe you gon lose You got some power in your hands and you keep tryina abuse it I took more losses than wins but I could never get used to it That's why I do what I'm doin The haters sayin something different imma prove what I'm provin And imma keep on improving And I ain't never stop movin Even though I'm goin through it