April 2019

April 2019 The month I figured I'd stop eating I was trying to look better to please others Mind's deceiving I'm thinking "I'm fat gross disgusting" Discussing with myself on what to cut from my day Got only crumbs on my plate Tears falling down my face Waterworks everyday Wonder what Mom would say Stress built up to the top There's never any release when you feel alone No one could help even when they tried So I'm thinking this is it This is my life now and I can't fix shit No way So I'm thinking this is it This is my life now and I can't fix shit September 2019 The month I told my mom Heartbroken she had already known felt less alone Gotta take this road and I'm feeling more hope Maybe in time I won't be skin and bone who knows It all has to start with me I need to put the effort in As hard as it seems Gotta wait and see So I'm thinking this is it I'm on a road to redemption Man I gotta solve this Okay So I'm thinking this is it I'm on a road to redemption Man I gotta solve this January 2020 The month I'm writing this song I'm feeling better not fully but I'm getting stronger everyday I got a lot on my plate mentally and physically But I'm in a better state Slow pace to recovery But I'm on my way It's a brighter day It's a brighter day He's seeing brighter days Now that he's happier Strolling through the city Head high like a bachelor Funny how I'm still in love Zero thoughts of moving on Proved himself he never wrong Put him down to make a song You'd never know how long it took me just to build my confidence Confidential hid away Was afraid to show my face Thinking life would never change Found a friend who felt the same Now we always on the same page Longing for them same days Summer 16 Everything was in it's place Everything was in it's place I lost those people then I guess we're better now I'm seeing better days I'm seeing better days I'm seeing better days