As I Vent

Starving man I'm trying hard to find something to eat Cause this hunger needs a feast All these snacks can just appease Got my son now coming over Like they're anything to eat How the f*ck I'm spose to feed em When I'm minimum a week And my mama talking bout All the Bill's is due next week And stressing trying to make it Shit no daddy on the scene While I'm always running late Now my son this what he see Always working through the nights Trying to gain a better life See im missing out on time That's important in his mind How I'm trying hard balance Teeter totting on the line Will I fail before they eyes When they always on my mind Feel like I'm always losing time Now I need it in abundance Cause these feelings got my lost Up throughout the nights Its like I always seem to toss Turning all these thoughts I need to mend all that we lost From the hand that we was dealt From the pain we always felt We just hid under the rug Like it was never there Why my hunger never settle Till the the pinnacle the peak Gained my strength threw out the weak Soon doubt would follow through Searching through the darkness Trying find a better you Till you sitting front the mirror Know that no one better do So you picking up the cargo And you documenting truths Sitting down to listen As I rap from out my view Tune in just to listen Through the worst You'll make it through When the times they seem the hardest Under pressure you'll find glue And hold it all together Till come out the bigger you Words I seem to ponder Back and forth until they truth Author to the script bout my life The rapper blues Answers in my mind Trying find em while yall snooze Come up something rocky Write my wrongs up in the booth And give yall all some guidance That I never heard in youth Walk amongst the giants Hold my own theres nothing due Confidence been missing Trying seek and push it through Changing up the play Like a audible will do And hail Mary gun it Till its caught im living proof Headed for the summit Know the journey something rude But documented writtens how I overcame and grew Constantly evolving To the man thats cutting through This from years of isolation See how analyzed my view Ten Thousand hours counted Out the womb with my first coo View Strategic when I play Just need to strategize the move Writtens in my head Locked in vaults now coming through Finally reached the scene Where I'm the sum of all my youth Mind it hold perspectives I find wisdom in the truth Failures always lessons For the weak never improve Never see the bigger picture How they zoomed in on its lens Stepping out the frame View the crack between its ends Life a thing a beauty If manuvered at your best Feats from out a circus How i juggle out the stress Burden never heavy When your shoulders always flexed Father never showed me I just learn from the best As I stared at my reflection And said fuk he really left Picked the reins up from the ground Shit just changed me to a hound Always battles with my mental Whats the next step from the now Trying hard to work it out Anxious feeling lost School now different like the house Silence filled the air Couldn't even hear the mouse Someone douse me with some water Need to wash the demons out As I rose from out the ashes Like a Phoenix fallen down Fire on my ass like a mario brother roasted Sitting where I'm now Looking back im fukin toasting Thanks for the lesson Guess you taught me without knowing