Origins

If I could I'd take it all back There's something wrong with my syntax And you weren't even supposed to see that If overweighted all the ways that you perceive me now And everybody wanna rehash Like we're living in a rehab It wasn't even like that But now I'll never live this down And if the writing's on the wall How could I see it if I'm falling on my sword O it's the saddest soul I'm overly focused on all of my flaws And I've lost confidence in everyone The thing I want most is the hardest to come Everybody's got something to say The sum of my pain is a price I can't pay And I feel all alone It's not that I don't love me I just hate that you don't You said you love but where you at You don't call me, you don't text back You can forget whatever we had It's all over now And everybody got a comeback So cool with your funny act But every joke I make, makes you mad Why is everybody so freaking mad And if the writing's on the wall How could I see it if I'm lying on my sword O it's the saddest soul I'm overly focused on all of my flaws And I've lost confidence in everyone The thing I want most is the hardest to come Everybody's got something to say The sum of my pain is a price I can't pay And I feel all alone It's not that I don't love me I just hate that you don't I'm sorry, don't be so angry I'm trying to be the best version of me And I'm failing and robbed of my sense of belonging and now I fear there's nothing left to save That it would matter anyway I guess the writing's on the wall It's the saddest soul I'm overly focused on all of my flaws And I've lost confidence in everyone The thing I want most is the hardest to come Everybody's got something to say The sum of my pain is a price I can't pay And I feel all alone It's not that I don't love me I just hate that you don't And you won't It's not that I don't love me I just hate that you don't It's not that I don't love me I just hate that nobody does It's not that I don't love me I just hate that they won't It's not that I don't love me I just hate everyone