growing up, giving up

My resistance is redundant My objectives are irrelevant I haven't felt real happiness in The last six months Everything is painless Nothing's consequenceless Recently I've been having trouble Keeping up This is not the last straw for me Woke up and my room's still dirty I've been looking for a cause I've been looking for a pulse But now I'm giving up Getting up is daunting Your voice is still haunting I haven't felt real happiness in Who knows how long Tonight I'm feeling gloomy Smoke makes the sky look dreary I've been waiting for too long And I have to move on This is not the last straw for me Woke up and my room's still dirty I've been looking for a cause I've been looking for a pulse But now I'm giving up This is not the last straw for me Woke up and my room's still dirty I've been looking for a cause I've been looking for a pulse But now I'm giving up