I Didn't Want This

I didn't want this I don't want that Calling my phone back to back I don't need that Now your calling me sad Like I didn't even know that And now I'm adding up the math And I'm seeing through all the lies I don't give a f*ck if I sleep alone tonight I'm getting in my ride I'll take all my pride I could see that you never tried I cried when my soul died Fought opened eyed As my demons tried to guide I tried to see through the light And I tried to never lie But I say goodbye like too many times You can see through all these thin lines That I'm trying to feel fine And I'll just keep drinking my red wine Life please show me a sign So I can grow like a vine In my own design And find the sun in my sublime Maybe it will take some time But I do fucking know that I didn't want this I don't want that Calling my phone back to back I don't need that Now your calling me sad Like I didn't even know that