Beloved

I decide what I do with our pain tonight Beloved, I can't say your name in hindsight Morphine running through my veins to my soul My mind told my heart to implode It won't go away My wish for my one and only death I'm out here deciphering between all of my truth and myth Once upon a time floating down a river of lime I'm dead and cold nowhere left to hide in my dark mind Desired justice to be whole But happiness ain't ever been a goal Oohhh Oohhh I decide what I do with our pain tonight Beloved, I can't say your name in hindsight Morphine running through my veins to my soul My mind told my heart to implode Nothing left to me you tore my heart to shreds Sola scriptura revealed more than you ever said Heart attack coming If I fail to put the demons to bed The leaning tower of pills to be misled The ghost of the past and her white knife Can easily create an enigmatic self-determinist-styled life Have the courage, pick up the sword, and lay it down the line Fact or fiction you get the choice to define I decide what I do with our pain tonight Beloved, I can't say your name in hindsight Morphine running through my veins to my soul My mind told my heart to implode I decide what I do with our pain tonight Beloved, I can't say your name in hindsight Morphine running through my veins to my soul My mind told my heart to implode Beloved Beloved Beloved Beloved Beloved Beloved My canoe hit another rock Caliban the result of man's aftershock Be afraid I dropped my oar And Ariel luh-vvduh a storm I yielded to the current events To blame my great-great-grandparents I felt a tug on my leg A ghost pulling me under and she said "It'll be okay..." she said "go under the surface" and Send chills down their spine Through your forgotten purpose Thank you, God, for sacrificing me to endure this I decide what I do with our pain tonight Beloved, I can't say your name in hindsight Morphine running through my veins to my soul My mind told my heart to implode I decide what I do with our pain tonight Beloved, I can't say your name in hindsight Morphine running through my veins to my soul My mind told my heart to implode