(You Wouldn't) So I Don't

Listen, Not sure how to say this It's easier to tame it Than watch me break your heart Illicit You noticed I've been distant My mind is someplace different Somewhere that you aren't You wouldn't move in closer so I don't Wouldn't leave in your number in a random phone Have someone over when I'm not home So I don't You wouldn't wear that black dress tryna catch a stare And look intently when they walk your way Wouldn't be the one to dig our grave So I don't Deleted Any of the traces, Texts that said his name I'm sure my guilt shows through Baby I lost it, The lipstick that you bought Did I leave it in the bar Or the back seat of his car? You wouldn't move in closer so I don't Wouldn't leave in your number in a random phone Have someone over when I'm not home So I don't You wouldn't wear that black dress tryna catch a stare And look intently when they walk your way Wouldn't be the one to dig our grave So I don't So I don't Was the liquor on my brain Couldn't be the lack of self restraint Maybe I'm the one to blame You shouldn't have to hear this but I moved in close I left my number in a random phone Had someone over when you weren't home (I know) I wore that black dress and I caught his stare I looked intently when he walked my way ... I dug our grave Yeah I know Yeah I know