I won't be

I know that when you look at me All you can see are the thing that I will Never be and it goes without saying I won't look up to you Up to you All you did was scream at me and make me feel worthless Just like everyone else You were the one person who was not supposed to do that Now I can't forgive you even if I wanted to And I'm almost sorry All this anger you put me through has had unforeseen consequences that Have gone and fucked me up Now I'm not okay and it's half your fault Half your fault I know that when you look at me All you can see are the thing that I will Never be and it goes without saying I won't look up to you Up to you I won't be anything you want and that's okay For me at least and I'm not ashamed of the mess that I've made I deal with it for you