Wasted Time, Borrowed Pain

Go This is a confession A truth to cleanse these veins so sallow Scathing introspection I drag my flaws now before the gallows A coffin nail for each day I burn myself in effigy I only want the very best, the good, the true But I have two halves so just split my fucking head in two This is trial by life, so hand me the knife With this blade of mine I'll say goodbye And cut away everything that decays my mind Trace the line Now it cannot hide And amputate this hate that makes me dead inside My wounded pride will not beget tragedy No suicide by poison complacency Anhedonia These scars are mine Will I rescind this rage? Will it metastasize? That scared little boy you knew he is long cold and fucking dead I ate his fucking heart I took his fucking head With this blade of mine I'll say goodbye And cut away everything that decays my mind Trace the line Now it cannot hide And amputate this hate that makes me dead inside Won't let me Be the death of me Make me free Drop the guillotine I can never cure you if I am your disease This is my valediction to being my own casualty With this blade of mine I'll say goodbye And cut away everything that decays my mind Trace the line Now it cannot hide And amputate this hate that makes me dead inside So let each drop bleed On my soul it feeds Carve myself this smile through broken teeth My Svengali My hamartia Your pulse is parasitic, vile passenger