Silent (feat. Pendo46 & Quest)

I have been stayin silent Not cuz I am bad They say I have been violent But I know deep down I am sad Waking up walking to the door While I still am mentally layin on the bed at 4 in the noon While I never slept in the night or the fuckin' mornin' Just sleepin' at work cuz this is where I find peace through distraction No affection for life It seems so worthless Everyone I been with Showed em their worth's crest While I realised I am worthless The last time I smiled was the last time I cried Cuz I was happy for them but sad for me As they went on and left me I was sad for me Sad for me I was Sad for Me I have been stayin silent Not cuz I am bad They say I have been violent But I know deep down I am sad Sirf Blind Faith nhi Believe karta mein khud pe Mein Woh ek life mein karunga Jo na tum karte Billi Banke 9 lives ki baat Tumse bahut door hai Yaar Saanpo ki kataar Mein yeh do chaar Maa Baap ke Aadar Satkaar Ka Bhi Inhe zero gyaan Dhyaan de aane wala hai bhuchaal Maine U.P se Assam Dekh machaya bawaal Time nhi Mera toh kaal aayega Saalon Saal Bitenge Phir Bhi naam yaad aayega Chhayega nhi kyunki badal nhi Beeta waqt nhi doobunga aur Sooraj ban phir ugg jaunga Dum meri Baaton mein Kyunki Gham unn halaton ke Jiya sacchai ke kaanton mein Haathon ki lakeero mein nhi Haathon mein taqdeer mein Surat Meri bigdi magar Sirat best thairi I have been stayin silent Not cuz I am bad They say I have been violent But I know deep down I am sad Mein rehta chup Meri Dhoop mere gaane Baitha Sunu gaane Not just about avsad But but Prativad EPR and NF and Eminem Not my idols Cuz I don't pray I think and contemplate Why they the best Why they better than the rest I just follow em for enlightenment of my mind and art So I could present better Be better inside They have had mistakes So as I have But like em never I gave my hope and soul away just Bought the devil with my high hopes They grope women I grope issues which lie deep inside the corrupt system while I listen to a beat which Pendo Made it 46 I am like 47 but different cuz I am not that casual I strain my lungs and skill and my mind to find the best rhymes to fit inside this song of mine So that I could create an impact so it becomes a trend Trend Followers many but u don't follow consistency and not your own cuz u think it ain't cool Listen to the local train Sanam and gain the melodies They could have broken Records like BTS which u follow blindly Empathy only when it happens with me Be the other person once Sacrifice Silence and then please see What we suffer with in our lives daily