Words That Hurt

My hearts turning colder You need to watch what you say Cause one day we'll get older And I won't be here to stay I been lying to my mama When she asks me if we're done Cause you know I hate the drama But our loves still on the run Cause baby I'm so scared to fall again I wish that you would love me like I'm him Cause if you're in the need of attention Then I can be your man just for pretend And baby if you're truly moving on Then go ahead and let me drown in peace My heart is always aching from thoughts Our memories on loop, they never end I'm losing self control my tires wet I know you hate whenever I'm reckless The more you take from me the more I give Wanted all the love for you, you're so selfish But if I could reset, do it all again I would've never lied, or gaslighted We love being the villain, that much is true But girl our situation makes me, oh so blue Girl you're toxic, it's not my job to fix you Don't call my phone again, hoping that I miss you These things have changed, sayin' shit you know gon' hurt me The problem is, I know you're lying it's unnerving You're in my dreams girl Poisonous but bittersweet Been getting too drunk More pineapple and Hennessy I been too high Tsunami waves of you and me I need a getaway A paradise, canary dreams I gave my everything Even when I felt it killing me Was scared to lose you Didn't realize I was losing me I need to find a girl Stop skipping love like truancy You're never coming back It's clear to me, the world can see So when you feel my pain later tonight You don't gotta check on me I'll be just fine Cause when I'm feeling lonely late at night I'll find some company but it ain't right Cause baby I'm so scared to fall again I wish that you would love me like I'm him Cause if you're ever needing attention Then I can be your man just for pretend And baby if you're truly moving on Then go ahead and let me drown in peace My heart is always aching from thoughts Our memories on loop, they never end Yeah they fade Oh they never fade They never Always on my mind darling you are Always on my mind darling you are Miss your love Where did you go Miss your love you got a home In someone new Just tell the truth Why did you move on When you know it's you The love I got for you It don't belong to no one else You know How it felt When I had nobody but you on my side Told you I'm down to ride But you left me all alone When I needed you alright