For Life

I'm all alone, alone I am, I a And I wanted you for life And I want you to be mine When you leave I am not fine And I can't face my fears What do you mean that you're not fit? Sick of feeling defeat Sick of being alone But I can't trust nobody Yes, I've been praying for peace Yes, I know I've been feeling defeat Yes, I've been trying my best Yes, I can't tell who's with me Like, f*ck the rest (Man f*ck 'em) And yes, I can't let it go Fingers on the trigger and I'm bout to blow Yes, I know that it jammed Yes, I know that I melt Listen, it's so easy to flip the coin Just to show one side You wanna manipulate, gave you my heart I-I give it all and the only thing I wanted back is you to reciprocate Even though I broke the gates, I can't escape this hell I wonder if something of me will be left to tell I feel like a turtle, I'm stuck in my shell And yes, I suffer, I know that I'm weak Yes, I feel it like every week My stomach can't stomach the pain and I wonder if life goes somewhere Cause I know that I stumble it's crumbling right in my hands I only sleep cause I only feel hurt whenever I'm up I'm feeling so down, I know it's ironic I may be a clown Nose red and I'm lit up, I'm so angry, crashing a beamer Where do we go when we die? Actually, I don't give a f*ck Man, let me just fly out of this world Cause I can't feel shit no more Stuck in between of words, I can hear my thoughts, they're so close I knew I shouldn't have trusted, no, ho I'm lost for life, I won't be fine I know that I can't do it without you by my side I can't face my fears, I know that you're not fit I'm feeling defeat, and I swear it won't stop And it won't stop falling, I know the world ain't holy (It ain't) I know there's nothing left to save me but I still am hoping Can someone find me the remedy to be the best of me Instead of singing love songs desperately Cause I'm sick of putting my trust in these people Sick of losing my mind when my ego think I need to just die My sleep though think I'm losing it, I can't think more Head hurts, got a migraine, reminiscing when you were in my bed And suddenly it went sideways, like what the f*ck am I fighting for For someone when I'm stuck, won't bust the door? won't bother call I feel like I'm stuck inside these walls and it seems impossible to get out Let alone being played like some chessboard I can't fall but it's calling me and I can't know what I'm bound to be Cause I got lost and trapped inside this maze I count my days, ain't nothing pays And all I can do, all I can do is sit and gaze, Inon, yeah