Haven't I Had Enough?

I haven't thought about killing myself in the last 4 days (Hooray) F*ck all the burns and the sneers Stoked all the fires that were near To throw the ash in my face I'm taking over The hold That it has me in I need a shoulder Getting older With my weathered skin Bags under my eyes Beats chasing after lines Cause I'm fucking clean for the first TI'me In what feels like forever So don't relax just yet Already start to forget As I lay in the stale sweat Stagnant pool that remains from the weekend (Mate that is fucking grI'm) Slam it shut all the wrong doors that I took Was it luck I didn't choke when I threw it up? Laugh it up life's a joke cross the line you punched Uppercut f*ck me up I haven't had enough Haven't I had enough? I've spent too long self medicating I know it's wrong and you can hate me for it "Well if the boot fits" I'm surely helpless A vicious cycle where I'm forced to admit I'm too fucking old to still be doing this every weekend So here's a prescription for a new set of pills I won't get any better until I cut a deal With myself Here's the lesson Shut up and listen Id cut every one of you off We'd never speak to again Back a bag fly out in the morning Forget all my friends by 10am Without an ounce of regret Without a slither of pain Not a word from my mouth Is said in vain The glass is half full At this angle it looks From down inside of this hole I'm convinced is my stronghold Where I sleep all day long Covered in vines as I grow mould If I just took a day to heed my advice Be on my own in the cold as it struck midnight If I can't see this is the last thing that I need I will rely on myself to stay clean