seasons

See I'm torn I love to see the leaves fall But it's just gone that time of year I've counted 6 since he left How could I ever forget? Cause I miss those nights And I'd give everything Just to lose at Fifa again I should tell you why this seasons tainted And how much pain I've caused by being this way I could tell you how much you have saved me But I wont leave myself open again They say I'm moving too fast But I've come to terms with who and what I am When will this Fucking year pass I can't move forward if I'm always looking back (Then it turns less stormy next week but they'll still be unsettled weather around) This season just got so much harder (She says I'm all that she needs) I thought I'd get more time (I just need time to grieve) Extend my drinking till the morning after (Can I be what she needs) Without you by my side (I have to try to be) I can tell you why this seasons tainted And how much pain I've caused by being this way I could tell you how much you have saved me But I won't leave myself open again I could lay here for days but it won't help bring her back This life is full of regret Self destruct till I admit I make things harder at best So please just give it a rest Oh fucking give it rest You can tell me how your seasons are tainted Open up, let me stumble right through And Just like that I'm the one who needs saving And proves she stronger than you So you know why this seasons is tainted All this time I've lost by being this way Now you know Why I needed the changes And why I need you to stay