Residue (feat. Kenny Stroh)

I'm pathetic, I could not follow through Everything that I do is just a disappointment to you No need to revive, I reside in this dark room Nothing left of me but residue My mind is set I got it planned in my head Too many years of thinking and wishing that I was dead I got a bottle of water A pill bottle again Only this time taking what was not recommended I fall back to the fear and distrust I fucking step back looking in the mirror in disgust I wanna give in Like nobody's giving a f*ck I wanna give in Fucking give in Give it up My hearts beating for the first time Every day before was nothing but a flatline I'm gonna end it all, everything I'll never be Coming to the realization that I was dead before therapy F*ck therapy You're fucking blind to the truth There is no saving me You lie to me F*ck therapy You lie, You lie There is no hope for me I'm past the point of no return Years of contemplation have brought me here Nothing can help me I've become numb to the world I've checked out I can't turn around from this Lost in this pain My mind is set Ready to end this But I can't commit Nothing you say could ever help me It'd only add to my suffering There is no hope for me I was dead before therapy F*ck therapy I'm pathetic, I could not follow through Everything that I do is just a disappointment to you I'd do anything to feel the trigger of a .22 Put it to my temple and fuckin take in the residue TAKE IN THE RESIDUE