Grow

I'm not the man I always wanted to see My feet are sealed within concrete And I'm not the man I always wanted to see I'm going nowhere, the feeling's so bittersweet I always expected a better outcome in my life Woke up everyday expecting some newfound strife This isn't what I meant when I said I wanted to grow up No no this isn't what I meant when I said I was ready to grow up The world's a dangerous place, yeah I've heard it all before When you're a kid you're always yearning for more And as you get older you begin to realize The monster's from below your bed begin to grow inside your head The cancer slowly grows inside, your demise is imminent But how could this be? As a kid your days were infinite This isn't what I meant when I was still innocent No no this isn't what I meant when I was still innocent No no no I'm not ready to grow No no no I'm not ready to grow No no no I'm not ready to grow No no no I'm not ready to grow And there's no end in sight My head's in a constant fright On top of the world feel the height of it all But my mind is so low I'm not ready to grow And there's no end in sight My head's in a constant fright On top of the world feel the height of it all But my mind is so low I'm not ready to grow Each day goes by faster than the last it's worse when all you do is sit around thinking of the past I remember running around the backyard in 06, to ten years later looking for a nicotine fix Been thinking of the past times and the fast times some of them have been the best times making rhymes those past Times really helped me through the bad times I don't think you'll understand those last couple lines But we've come so far in our lives, coming from early morning drives Blasting twenty one pilots everyday, it's cliched but I wouldn't have it any other way Growing up is such a weird feeling, forgetting the rough times and constantly healing Just to grow into rougher times, just to learn there's no such thing as consistently healing No no no I'm not ready to grow No no no I'm not ready to grow No no no I'm not ready to grow No no no I'm not ready to grow And there's no end in sight My head's in a constant fright On top of the world feel the height of it all But my mind is so low I'm not ready to grow And there's no end in sight My head's in a constant fright On top of the world feel the height of it all But my mind is so low I'm not ready to grow As a kid I was taught there's a heaven and hell And whenever you die you'll hear the toll of a bell But I soon began to realize the hell is inside the mind And the heaven is eventual happiness to find As a kid I was taught there's a heaven and hell And whenever you die you'll hear the toll of a bell But I soon began to realize the hell is inside the mind And the heaven is eventual happiness to find No no no I'm not ready to grow No no no I'm not ready to grow No no no I'm not ready to grow No no no I'm not ready to grow And there's no end in sight My head's in a constant fright On top of the world feel the height of it all But my mind is so low I'm not ready to grow And there's no end in sight My head's in a constant fright On top of the world feel the height of it all But my mind is so low I'm not ready to grow