Bonus Without The 'B'

I smile now, even though I know that it's not okay, it's not okay So many loved ones now resting in the ground Me, I know my heart's not stuck underground I want to lift me up but stuck on how? Feeling all the wavy motions, I still don't know how to hold it? I can't focus Magic Confucius, this hocus pocus Keep on going on my onus So I can own this moment I've been trying to find my way Look for the wisdom in all of the answers you've given me Try to find peace for my energy Reading you mind like telepathy Need your healing, need your therapy Need you here, feel your entity Getting so amazing at what I do No more confusion, I glide through Had to nurture something, yeah you too Love to let my light shine through Sometimes the things you want don't work out your way sometimes I had to write new lines to piece together this verse this night Disappointments come, don't let it break you Had to follow, adapt and change too I want to see what you can make too Stay on the course, onus its my move I've seen it all, the fake and the true I won't regret, I walk away too Now I see changes, root me like Groot This is my life, I'm speaking my book I smile now, even though I know that it's not okay, it's not okay So many loved ones now resting in the ground Me, I know my heart's not stuck underground I want to lift me up but stuck on how? Feeling all the wavy motions, I still don't know how to hold it? I can't focus Magic Confucius, this hocus pocus Keep on going on my onus So I can own this moment Owning this moment Do it for my people above and below Must nurture and harness Time is a factor and finite its shows My picture, my portrait Distorted and disfigured quite like my soul First now, important Clean the apple, till I see shine glow Feeling away, feeling a vibe I feel like cookie crumble inside Need I make haste? Is it a waste? Maybe there's crazy written on my face! Lazy Sunday, easy Monday Never seeing me in the same light, keeps me sane Slow it down! Think about it for a second now Like gasey molecules, feel passed around, I feel amused Can't choke me now! Unchained by all your burdens too My essence it sounded my freedom flute