Fear Of Failure

Since I was a young boy I seeked validation, seeked explanation Always searching for the truth somehow never found it Always giving you my best, could never meet your expectations Stumbled down this dark alley Fear I'm a failure Wings they've been anchored, pride always shattered Do I even matter? Sometimes I'd even tell myself this mistake still happened What happened? Depression fucked me so hard Buried three loved ones Trauma made me so strong Life is not perfect so the show must still go on Fighting Cell games while my life becoming Gohan Hit my limit, pushed past my boundaries I became seasoned chiselled I don't reset factory, got the mileage chilling You don't know therapy like the words that's written Were you ever proud of me? I want know for certain No no, no no, no no, no no, no no, no no, no no, no no, no no, no no April 1st I understood that life is bumpy A rollercoaster ride, it's topsy-turvy I wasn't even there by your side I should've realized all the signs But how could you so young and naive? Parents both left us earth before I left my teens Hurt I won't be able to give them finer things For my brother and my sister built a legacy I'm built to last like Ford, that's the better me Ey Ey Ey Ey Ey Going so hard like I'm Rambo I pull the strings like Gepetto Heavyweight on me like Sumo Adventure so crazy with Jojo Working so hard I don't fall behind Chasing for the check I might just lose my mind We all make mistakes but we act so divine Tell me to it, I'll never comply My good's never good enough Why I hate on myself and feel I'm a failure No no