inevitable

I blink once now I'm twenty where did time go Hopping on flights maybe I was left behind somewhere in a whole 'nother time zone Feel like every day nothing change but I look back and I passed a whole lotta milestones Dressing up in these rhinestones just so you don't notice how my brain going down in a spiral My damn mind spinning round like a vinyl Too many goals many steps that I didn't climb They was stepping on my face and I didn't mind Well I could've made it stop but I didn't try I'm not the same though that was all a different time Back and forth every weekend I been out of town Hospital visits but I'm not the one that's in a gown I lost my gramps last thing he told me stay strong I light one up so I can brush all of the pain off Starting to drown in the cost of these lawyer fees Running from problems but I can't even afford to leave Don't get me wrong don't be thinking that I'm broke now Even with the damn pressure never broke down Worst time told myself I'd never find love But amidst all of the struggle I done found one A pretty thang sweet heart with a brain too She make me nervous but I stay calm stay cool I been distant really hope she doesn't change moods When I'm away know we looking at the same moon I don't know if she 'gon stay when I'm in chains though Guess I'm boutta find out when my case close Slurring my words off this drank not intelligible My heart and soul and my mind been impenetrable Feel like every day I'm delaying the inevitable I gotta let it all happen it's inevitable Slurring my words off this drank not intelligible My heart and soul and my mind been impenetrable Feel like every day I'm delaying the inevitable I gotta let it all happen it's inevitable I blink once now my nephew boutta turn one That's not my kid but he helping me to learn sumn' Could be my light and my strength when the worst comes Calm me down even more than when I burn one Always wanted to be a dad I really do I just never saw it working with women that I knew Scared it'll happen at a time that I didn't choose No matter what when it comes imma stick through I pay the price of lust and it's not cheap I shoulda never took drugs when I lost sleep Alone again but I tell myself it's not deep If anything I didn't lose you ya lost me Still the same whipping in the rain lane switching If you left don't come back now stay missing Still stay spitting and the bass stay hitting I been making all theses songs cause my brain made different Slurring my words off this drank not intelligible My heart and soul and my mind been impenetrable Feel like every day I'm delaying the inevitable I gotta let it all happen it's inevitable Slurring my words off this drank not intelligible My heart and soul and my mind been impenetrable Feel like every day I'm delaying the inevitable I gotta let it all happen it's inevitable