If Only

In my dreams I feel so alive I feel myself coming back to life I wanna feel the love that surrounds me But hateful thoughts turn this pain to reality I want to believe that I can change for the good But something's wrong because I hate things more than I should Stop Is this real Stop I can't feel a thing Bring on pain and suffering Yea, if only you knew If only you knew Yea, if only you knew If only you knew If I found the time I'd be telling you why Thoughts are taking you backwards in time And the days are getting hard to recognize The man I've become ain't the boy I'd left behind One could say that I've found some reason As the cost ain't worth the time Stop This is real Stop I can feel everything No more pain or suffering Yea, if only you knew If only you knew Yea, if only you knew If only you knew