And I Pray (feat. Aaron Thompson)

I think I'm losing my mind Praying to never get signed Lined up with these kids spittin Trippin on what I say-I'm rippin Dippin into my reserve Only to preserve pure hip hop I clip lock and load to blast But that kinda thing don't last I'm down and out-bout to end it Can't defend it-I turn an lend it On deaf ears-my lyrics fall flat And there's no line after that Its all over-they aint listenin The saliva upon my lips its glistening My thoughts are to put fists in em But it aint worth the time I question these efforts still tryin to shine Blind to the facts- I lost all my contacts And I'm alone in this game strugglin Hustlin to reach out to the heads But they turnin like I'm in feds beds Leakin info-I aint with that But they still turn their back Regardless of how I rap Regardless of who I attack Need I ghostwrite for yall to feel me It's just too raw for u to know the real me I'm tired of all the games Why do I feel like I'm alone On the longest days Have you all gone astray Lord, I pray Oh we need to change We only have one life to live So live it-don't just turn and give it Like hand me downs-these clowns Think they can write some rhymes Get with the times and be posers Catch some heat and I'm spittin closers Putting an end to hip hop blasphemies I'm grippin the mic-like this the last of these I'm talkin bout tracks I'll make I'm talkin about a mic I'll take Snatch from a youngin and put work in Don't get it twisted I'm in the midst lurkin Just don't need to show face Don't need to keep pace with wannabe stars Bars ahead of the game forget hollywood fame I'm out to make a street name With some credibility Invincibility is a thing of the movies Fictional like rappers not havin male groupies Like newbies steppin on toes with no flow Lord knows-and I pray and I pray That I can keep my sanity in someway I'm tired of all the games Why do I feel like I'm alone on the longest days Have you all gone astray Lord, I pray Oh, we need to change I don't need the money I don't need the fame I don't need the honeys I don't need the dames I don't need the drugs The cocaine I don't need the dubs On the Mustang I don't need the cars Or an aeroplane Or to be a star and have to change names I don't need the bling And the fancy chains I just wanna sing Not just anything I want a new life Not to be the same I wanna follow Christ Cause he took the blame