Growth Spurt

God and I got reconnected Sow his word and started reaping my blessings My confidence I had to reposes it Emotions re-express them Change my ways to reach the heavens Year 23 I treat it like jeepers creepers Behind the mic time to meet the reaper Ya'll just don't cut it and I got the clever To the game I'm Lebron was to Cleveland Words building bonds they start believing In they selves see they dreams and get to reaching Like the x button in 2k Did I just play it to safe Can't be scared to take a risk Shoot even if you miss Get a rebound and keep on tryin Used to think my life is plain whole time I'm flyin With a whole lot of turbulence But at least I'm off the surface lift Off thinking I got my wings sitting in the pit Thinking I'm controlling my destination TillI get the realization It's on auto pilot And God's flying Even when I'm nose diving Thinking its the end like Mayan I gotta realize this is bigger than I am I am merely a vessel Used by God just to help you Even when I'm lonely remember he never left you He'll never let you Down even when ya parents do Your girl or your crew Your brothers your sisters cousins nieces and nephews Your job or your career Clothes cars money is there Materialism I would self indulge Short tempter not Fahrenheit probably burst the bulb Thinking why he fill me with self doubt Giving my all to my people thinking how To fill a void of emptiness Thoughts became insidious Self hate playing with self harm Smile was a mask hiding all my scars I never felt so alone, in a up hill fight Praying and waiting for things just to go right It was one night Me and got in a fight And I lost it Yelling and fighting for hours exhausted She fell asleep I wrote a letter to my family Saying please forgive But I don't have anymore life live I ran outside in the bitter cold Dark road, just laid there Got up tears flowed came near A parking garage and went to the top Standing on the ledge felt my heart drop Calling God then I just stopped See sometimes you gotta go through hell to reach heaven That was so selfish what I was about to do God has blessed me so much, so many gifts so many talents So many great people in my life Never let anger, depression or fear control you It's in God's hands its his plan lehgo Yikes Sierra the way I G-Mc's Giving L's like the dmv DOA's and RIP's Gifted like Christmas haters scrooge like Ebeneeze Catching fire I'm Katniss Everdeen I'm the greatest they ever seen Growing money like a tree and mine is evergreen Rolling through green like I'm in a golf cart Know niggas that will pull your hallmark Get the cue and hit your pockets like a pool shark I got a cold heart Took ya son and raised him like Rafiki Got ya Bm on the beach with no bikini She saying get between me Now we between sheets I'm Ron Isley Intellect be ivy Leaving careers on IV Pull the cord like a guitarist My flow the hardest They say you nuts WILL I AM known for going retarded Thats a humble brag Had to tell you what I been through to let you know where I'm going Yikes