Lavender

I've been rehearsing the lines for an argument that never happens Find the words to save face from decisions I've made and regretted But I can't keep things straight in my head and it makes me so anxious Try to sleep with a clear conscience Counting sheep and slowly grinding down my teeth If I could, I'd wipe the slate clean But I don't know how I got into this It's something I've been trying to forget One more step in the wrong direction and I just might go off the deep end It's high time to put this fire out, it's only in my head So sick and tired of wasting my time Dwelling on the things that I can't change I'm over it No matter how I turn it over There's no coming back from this but I don't know why I can't see the forest for the trees or leave loose ends untied I know what I said but it wasn't what I meant So let's not go back down that road again I struck the match and started chasing shadows I wanted clarity but now I'm choking on smoke It's high time to put this fire out, it's only in my head So sick and tired of wasting my time Dwelling on the things that I can't change I'm over it Maybe I'm just overthinking but There must be a reason why I'm such a drag to be around All my friends are tapping out The habits aren't so easy to break or replace so you just accept it I'm trying to forget but I've grown used to them If I could stay outside for a second Abstain from my reflexes Take a step in the right direction Could you tell the difference? Right now I could only make things worse So I keep forcing down the words The pieces I pick up don't fit together But I'm still trying to make it work