Untimely Me

I can't let myself think straight Everything is cloudy When will this all go away My thoughts are left astray I fell down to the floor Hoping for no more Please don't leave me be I can't hardly breathe It's taking a toll on me I can't wait for this to leave It's got me heaving on my knees Pretending that I'm fine So you can't see All this misery All this untimely me And I've been thinking That I've been sinking For so long That it seems it's not enough So tell me what's enough Get outside To clear my mind Clouds are blue But not in my eyes Optimism, yeah I've tried I can feel the nerves dripping down my spine Pretending that I'm fine So you can't see All this misery All this untimely me I've had it up here I'm battling myself I hope one day I win For the sake of my own health Please just let this go away I'm counting down my final days I can't believe it But I know I'm right That in the end All good things subside And all that I care about Truly means nothing Might as well just die tonight Forget the things that I hold inside Let go of everything Float away and fly