Kira

I never thought that sleep could be such an exhausting way to run from who I've been I'm being torn apart in this universe between you and your skin Because you pulled me in, and I fell into an ocean I was never meant to swim My body's cold, the air grows thin "As long as we're alive We can find a heaven" That's so easy to say When we can just make believe Bodies are more than cages Keeping us locked in ourselves Because hell shines so much brighter in this Ocean I was never meant to swim There is a universe between you and your skin And now I sleep within I feel the borders of my being slip away I don't know where I end and where the thoughts of you begin I've grown so comfortable in this half-living state Where all that keeps me alive is a stranger's praise It isn't failure I fear What I fear is change If we were one, body and soul, the version of myself alive in your mind would become real. So what the f*ck would become of me? We could lick the wounds cut out by the world and by ourselves We could prove that we're alive Before we have to die I claw at your skin, like if I break through I could be something more than myself Be like what you see in me But I'm so afraid Oceans I could never help but swim There is a universe between you and your skin Don't take me in again