Is This Even Real

This ain't over I feel it again The presence of it's getting closer I've been running For far too long But now I see what I was becoming I see the man I wanna be I try so hard it ain't easy Keep holding onto the fear I gotta let you go Year after year I try to heal Go on with life but I cant feel Is this even real Is this even real Time is changing The way that I see The things I almost let destroy me Getting older It's getting clear Nothings what it seems to appear I see the man I wanna be I try so hard it ain't easy Keep holding onto the fear I gotta let you go Year after year I try to heal Go on with life but I cant feel Is this even real Is this even real What if I gave All that I had To find a way To give it away What could I blame If I'm still the same If I can't be free The problem is me