fall in love

I don't know that I can fall in love Cus I don't think I know myself Or my heart any more And seeing myself I don't see someone Who could ever be doing well Cus what's enough any more She sent photos of her ass and said she wanted to blow me I don't know what to say I sent the peach emoji Why do crowded rooms make me feel so lonely I just wanna be somebody's one and only I don't know what I need, but I know I gotta find it I think I should be happy but does that make me entitled I should have kept my head down baby now I'm feeling blinded But back to these photos, oh I'm turning up the brightness I don't know that I can fall in love Cus I don't think I know myself Or my heart any more And seeing myself I don't see someone Who could ever be doing well Cus what's enough any more I don't know what I'm doing, can somebody show me It's been a long time since someone got to know me Something in the silence makes it feel unholy I'm countin seconds in the night they pass so slowly The isolation's setting in I guess I'll check my phone It's hard to find the words to say I never feel at home Somehow I'm in her bed again I don't like saying no And even when she's next to me I'm sleeping all alone I don't know that I can fall in love Cus I don't think I know myself Or my heart any more And seeing myself I don't see someone Who could ever be doing well Cus what's enough any more Walls up, stay strong Too close, so long It's still the same story always so forth and so on Pain is not forever but it's so easy to prolong Things are getting better all i have to do is hold on Maybe he's born with it maybe it's body dysmorphia Nature versus nurture it's that man made euphoria If god made me like this then I guess I'll sing a Gloria In excelsis deo til the day that I'm victorious I don't know that I can fall in love Cus I don't think I know myself Or my heart any more And seeing myself I don't see someone Who could ever be doing well Cus what's enough any more