Near Death Experience

I'm sinking by the second I realize it's not getting any better I'm looking outside and all I see is bad weather And now I have to keep to myself Trust no one and nobody else It's something new every fucking day Problems pile up like the bills I have to pay I'm getting used to not getting my way I'm so broke I can't even afford to pray I'm living a life I didn't choose Nothing to do but sing my fucked up blues And I try to remember A time so crystal clear But the end is always near I'm not dead but I'm getting there It's like rock bottom just keeps getting deeper It's like I'm in heaven going through hell