Inner Child

I tell my inner child I’m sorry for everything you had to go through It started as a child I wish that I was stronger in situations that I had to go through I’m tryna press it now No unconditional love, don’t feel love through hugs Strained relationship with my mama caused a lot of my drama Been tryna find love in all the wrong places Disappointment every-time I’m tryna go back to the basics I tell my inner child I’m sorry for everything you had to go through It started as a child I wish that I was stronger in situations that I had to go through I’m tryna press it now Sexual assault happened at a young age, same gender babysitter violated, didn’t know no better I think I was just 8 As I got older it finally came to me This what happened, made me question things about my sexuality. Things I seen was exposed, abuse and violence took a toll, anxiety as I got older Didn’t know the reason looking for a shoulder, to cry on wasn’t nobody there to hold us My daddy wasn’t here, didn’t have no father figure Seen mama happy had somebody new confided in em She didn’t believe that he molested us, left all of us hopeless, seen trust was dangerous No unconditional love, don’t feel love through hugs Strained relationship with my mama caused a lot of my drama Been tryna find love in all the wrong places Disappointment every-time I’m tryna go back to the basics I tell my inner child I’m sorry for everything you had to go through It started as a child I wish that I was stronger in situations that I had to go through I’m tryna press it now Had to get my life together, I fell down so many times, chasing this music career thinking I was lost but now I’m found A year ago two bullets went through my legs look at me now I’m still searching for myself I need to heal my inner child Ain’t no mo finding love, I need to give it to myself Trauma stemmed from adolescence in therapy need some help Ran from healing Every-time I went and found somebody else Now look at me got no choice it’s time I fasten up my belt I try not to judge my mama, things she went through I don’t know about it Swept under the rug for generations, gotta be the one to stop it Know it’s a long road but it’s worth it to me Don’t wanna be hurt no mo, so my soul can be free No unconditional love, don’t feel love through hugs Strained relationship with my mama caused a lot of my drama Been tryna find love in all the wrong places Disappointment every-time I’m tryna go back to the basics I tell my inner child I’m sorry for everything you had to go through It started as a child I wish that I was stronger in situations that I had to go through I’m tryna press it now