don't look at me

When things just get too much Thoughts just boil up in my head I'm screaming in my room Hope the walls ain't talking back When things just get too much I'm just hanging off the edge I don't want anyone to see me like that I don't want And I take meds to fight the side effects of meds I take To fight the fucking stress I get from taking all these meds I mean, I barely ever rest Obsessing till the rest, just breaks my legs Break my neck, say something Why you looking at me like I ain't trying to save myself? I can't win I, I, I I paint my nails bright red To hide the blood From scratching up my legs When things just get too much Thoughts just boil up in my head I'm screaming in my room Hope the walls ain't talking back When things just get too much I'm just hanging off the edge I don't want anyone to see me like that I don't want Act like a higher purpose's calling, so I disregard my body It's a vessel, I'm a mess, so I'm just laughing as I'm falling Pour some liquor, pass a night, just to throw up in the morning I just dry clean my insides, promise, you don't have to- I'm sorry to make you worry Two seconds, thirteen stories I'll decorate the sidewalk, leave a mess Let me go, I need some rest Mom, I swear, I tried my I paint my nails bright red To hide the blood From scratching up my legs When things just get too much Thoughts just boil up in my head I'm screaming in my room Hope the walls ain't talking back When things just get too much I'm just hanging off the edge I don't want anyone to see me like that I don't want