cuts so deep

I hate myself I am a monster I make everyone I love cry They all disappear And I stand still Watching them go It's better that way Maybe the one who has to leave is me So that way I won't hurt anymore I don't want to repeat this cycle again I don't want to repeat this cycle again Begging for something that puts me to sleep My mind is the prison, don't think about anything Watching nmyself in the mirror I hate me I wish I disappear