Ghost Mode

Do not disturb, please leave me the f*ck alone And don't try to call me cause I won't pick up the phone Some get left on seen, after that I guess my covers blown If only you could pick up on my apathetic undertones Its not you I'm in a bad spot mentally Floating through the nights like a sad lost melody Echoing forever humming moonlight sonata While I beat myself up like a huge white pinata And I don't wanna leave my place today at all I'd rather put a bullet in my brain and paint the wall Than walk around a mall or stand up on the bus Like a mentally unstable George Costanza goin nuts And although I've been up on that cliff top I'd never Try bungee jumping in that slipknot forever For real I should be workin' my hip hop endeavors But I'm easily distracted and I'll binge watch whatever I'm in ghost mode, hiding from the world in a cave And I wont go outside, I prefer to be caged Like an animal, born and then raised in a zoo That was forced to be normal and chase all its food I'm in ghost mode, hiding from the world in a cave And I won't go outside, I prefer to be caged Like in Pacman, there is no escape cause it loops Through a never ending cycle in maze where I'm blue Some just wont get it. Why? cause they're the lucky ones All they do is post with opposable monkey thumbs While I thrash around in shark infested waters with my bloody stumps They're on the beach in the sun, getting clumsy drunk But it's not like I'm judgin, I'm jealous I can never seem to stop after a couple of stellas Every bender meets an ending and then I come to my senses Feelin rough around the edges like I'm stuck in the trenches Yeah my phones blowin up like a samsung recall Plus my brain is feeling like a mashed up meat ball My every interaction's like an awkward elevator ride Hitting every floor to the top, I've felt this way inside So many times, I know to bear it and grin With my patience wearing thin I pull my hair and I cringe Because I never think ahead, I'll paint myself into the corner While my brain is out of order in a vacant house of horrors I'm in ghost mode, hiding from the world in a cave And I wont go outside, I prefer to be caged Like an animal, born and then raised in a zoo That was forced to be normal and chase all its food I'm in ghost mode, hiding from the world in a cave And I won't go outside, I prefer to be caged Like in Pacman, there is no escape cause it loops Through a never ending cycle in maze where I'm blue