Is This What Hell Feels Like?

All iam feeling is pain Thoughs of cutting away All i am feeling is pain Pills don't help in this case Why, im really asking god, just why Cant i be happy, just this time, just this time I was on the right path, but i relapsed here tonight, Really cannot fathom all these feeling, might just die Im really struggling here, Cant u, give me a sign Im sick of ruining everything The noose is open wide Wanna die But i cant do it F*ck my life I cannot fuckin tie the noose and make them cry