Chasing My Demons

Cube This is good stuff Look all the battles I have been fighting and You know sometimes it feels like Feels like you're lost you know You're just Doing every motherfucking shit just to Find your way out the shit hole That you find yourself Man I've been there a lot of times And I ain't gon lie It's a crazy place to find yourself All my life I've been Traumatized and carrying all this shit Sometimes I don't even like to talk about my problems 'Cause you know Niggas never get it I've got a lot of traumas that I really cannot speak about All the scars I've covered and memories have been fading out My daddy left my mama when I was about to be a dad Had me feeling stranded in the dark like everything is hard I needed a lot of guidance Who the f*ck would I be talking to Mom was thinking suicide Swear to God she almost did too Saw my mama crying and I know that she was hurting too I told her that I understand the pain that she was going through But deep down I was lying 'cause I know that I don't have a clue Pulled her to the side with a hug and said I'm here for you It happened for a reason and I said it like a platitude Though I needed saving I've been acting like I'm bulletproof I Prayed for better days but then the rain has kept on falling through You wonder why I'm angry and I always got an attitude It's been a lot of chaos and the cards that I've been dealt too And demons I've been fighting and their voices getting louder too Chasing my demons Yeah I ain't scared of my past again King of my kingdom Yeah Well, that's what my pastor said Chasing my demons Yeah I ain't scared of my past again King of my kingdom Yeah Well, that's what my pastor said Passive-aggressive always hide the pain in me A sucker for emotion, never let them see that side of me 'Cause only time they check on me is when they needing help from me And right now I wonder Shey this people really even care for me All the soldiers that we lost to the battles They don't talk about Pour another bottle, pop a pill just to slow it down Niggas doing time for crimes that they don't know about Tunnel vision in a jungle, nigga I'm a father now I'm not even the same nigga that I was a year ago Made it out the street but now my life is like a miracle Tryna be the ladder and I'm tryna stay pivotal Tryna be the one that takes my brothers to the pinnacle Started from trenches but I'm destined for the finer things Looking to the stars I've been searching for the brighter things Lost a lot of friends, never lost the ones I needed though Seen the bigger picture and the tunnel steady faded through Been pushing on the road, been tryna take it slow 'Cause I'm a target and I know they wanna see me go They tried to take me but my angels never let me go The Voices in my head they keep telling me to let it go I send the prayers to the heavens 'cause this life eee be like a gamble It's been a fucking marathon The tree is farther from the apple All the brothers that we lost And all our dreams been getting canceled All the drugs and all the frauds And all our fucking system wey dey crumble Chasing my demons Yeah I ain't scared of my past again King of my kingdom Yeah Well, that's what my pastor said Chasing my demons Yeah I ain't scared of my past again King of my kingdom Yeah Well, that's what my pastor said