Avoid the Brain

I needed motivation to get stronger I had the dedication to go farther Couldn't get some help from my own father Felt like I was always on my own I had the friends around me with no friends around me Always acting fake when I'd be down say sorry Somehow stayed afloat but now I'm down and drowning Told me to stay woke and now alarms are sounding Voices in my head right now they are surrounding They told me to not worry now the time is counting Stuck in my thoughts and memories so timely Back when I would hold you with your arms around me Nothing stopping me besides my heart thats pounding Im dying every night and I can't stop this feeling No ones hearing I should stop this dreaming One day someone asked me what do you believe in I truly could not answer cause my mind is leaving I'm done with all the pain I'm bout to go insane Please exert the pain Please avoid my brain Still struggling with insecurities No this is not a nose bleed Still wondering if she noticed me I see her face pop up inside my dreams My thoughts only exist up on these beats The real world is scaring me I need Morgan freeman to carry me Before this non human attempts to bury me Don't wast your mind I'm Losing my time I Can't find the words to say in this Monstrosity Please Don't trust my memories Please Don't trust m I'm done with all the pain I'm bout to go insane Please exert the pain Please avoid my brain