Early Home

There are words we try not say And thoughts we do not share Only cause I know your restless mind And I don't want you to be scared But there are discussions that we must have And there's one thing I need you to know That if the sky goes dark and the rain falls hard I'm there when the wind blows cold I'm holding you through the curtain I'm sharing all your hurting You can cry or smile still certain I'm smiling along too My hand holds yours in silence It's there, you just can't find it That emptiness, I'm behind it And I'm watching over you The lights aren't dim, you're not alone I never left, I'm just early home I admit I see the future clear I've got the next ten years planned out And I want it all with you The holidays, the kids, the house But I know things aren't always fair And I have to prepare for the worst Nothing can take me away from you But if time tries to separate us I'm holding you through the curtain I'm sharing all your hurting You can cry or smile still certain I'm smiling along too My hand holds yours in silence It's there, you just can't find it That emptiness, I'm behind it And I'm watching over you The lights aren't dim, you're not alone I never left, I'm just early home I want you to live I want you to take I want you to breathe Through all my stolen days I want you to love Don't spend this time alone It's not your fault, nor mine I'm just early home I want you to live I want you to take I want you to hold onto our memories But don't hold onto hate I want you to love But love means letting go Not forever, just until the day I see you back home I'm holding you through the curtain I'm sharing all your hurting You can cry or smile still certain I'm smiling along too My hand holds yours in silence It's there, you just can't find it That emptiness, I'm behind it And I'm watching over you The lights aren't dim, you're not alone I never left, I'm just early home And I'm waiting for you in the sun